An Open Letter to my EX: How I close my 2016 with FORGIVENESS and PEACE. 


To finally get closer to an end is to finally let go of the beginning. This was what I anticipated and have determined myself to finally be arriving at before touching and embracing the whole hope, excitement, adventure and love that 2017 brings. The year 2016 was like a root of a tree that has been intricately holding on a trellis and it requires time to separate them. It’s a life I know that’s real hard to assimilate and accept why I keep holding on. The best part was, I learned a lesson that despite of the pain that I know, there’s a bundle of happiness between the confusion of holding on and letting go. There were days that I blame myself for being weak, but I still praise myself for being brave to hoist myself by using the small strength that lies beneath the truth of my deep hope.


I hold words as my strength and that was my way out to separate from the situation, for I have collapsed in the throes of an agony in the past that I know I don’t even deserve. Hence a world I have known in the beginning was a strange world that I had known in the end. Yes, I fought the battle myself trying to hope that I win, but I have had just fooled myself and its killing me softly within. I brought up another war expecting to win the battle of chance, but I got nothing left, but the only hope of maybe and what If’s. I began tracking back since I might have lacked the strength I needed for the battle, but I couldn’t figure out or maybe it wasn’t a battle I intended to win cause it wasn’t a battle I expected it to be in.  

 


The coming days have been so loud and the situation is eagerly crossing the complicated streets of the unknown and I have no choice, but trying to comprehend the beginning of moving on. I started hating everything for no reason, I started doubting the hello’s and Hi’s cause it might be a trapped I should be evading for. I went swimming in the wide and a deep ocean of a pretending world, I met a likeness of my being, I’ve learned their stories, and so I know that I’m not alone fighting a battle I should have long been giving up. I’ve spoken to some of them, I learned that in every brokenness you received and owned, doesn’t always mean the end of the story you always wanted to write. 




I travelled far and hope for a true healing of the past. I started traveling to wherever my itchy feet are going to bring me. I met different kind of people with the same passion as mine, some really had the sweetest beginning and the happiest ending they both have expected to be arriving at, some are still traveling to obtain their true love and some are just traveling to enjoy a beautiful world that we all have. I have climbed mountains, I crossed to a different Islands, I’ve seen a great deal of stunning waterfalls, I’ve tasted luscious food, I’ve been flying with different Airlines, I’ve seen and met inspiring people, I went to a concrete jungle and I’m literary seeing myself happy with a life I’m currently having. 


I guessed I was fine and happy with a life I know I have enjoyed. There has been times I remember the glimpse of the memories I should have been buried under the ground. I’m still struggling a lot, but I know I’m strong enough to come out of it. I remember I talked and confronted myself for behaving like a weak man that I shouldn’t be. I demanded the chance to make peace with myself by simply writing my unending emotion that I should express. So I started writing, documenting my travels and the lessons I learned while traveling. I began seeing myself productive and I’m busy gaining back the trust in myself. I went knowing that behind my words, I have inspired people.

 

Just before the year 2016 was about to close, I made a step to reach out to the person who made my life meaningful and productive. Who made me realize that I deserve all the achievements I have now. Who have taught me a lesson that I’ll be forever thankful for. What if you didn’t leave?  Will I still become the person I am today? I guess I won’t be the same person I am now, which is strong, productive and happy. It’s a blessing that you left me with pain, but you’ve brought strength, determination and a reason to unlock my passion and my love for traveling and writing. I know that you’ve been happy with whatever life you choose to be right now and so I am. It is in true forgiveness and acceptance that we always find a true peace and happiness.

How about you guys out there?  Have you ever made peace and forgiveness for whatever have made your heart broken and in pain in 2016?

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30 thoughts on “An Open Letter to my EX: How I close my 2016 with FORGIVENESS and PEACE. 

  1. Afterall, it was a bittersweet experience.

    “I’ve spoken to some of them, I learned that in every brokenness you received and owned, doesn’t always mean the end of the story you always wanted to write.” and this is my favorite line. So sad. 😦

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  2. Something comes to mind when it comes to forgiving. It is also as much about admitting. To forgive is to pass the blame when there are always two sides to the coin. And so, you can only heal yourself when you forgive, at the same time, accept the responsibility and end all misgivings.

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  3. They say laughter is the best medicine. I say travel is the best medicine. It’s the best healer according to me. I’m very bad at dealing with emotions. When something goes wrong I fail to understand how I would react to the person or to the situation. So rather than trying to make sense of all the occurring thoughts I’d rather travel.

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  4. I think that is the best decision that you can take for yourself and for the loved ones around you. Moving on is one of the most important and difficult step in anyone’s life and I am really glad that you took that step. All the best.

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  5. It was also a heart break that lead me to leave and pursue my dreams of travel, it was a heart break that motivated me to take that step to try to do things to be alone…. moving on is difficult but hey, I’ve come so far from myself then and now— so kudos to you, proud of you for taking that step to move on. All the best.

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  6. What a heart warming premise you had there. I can feel the “hugot” hahaha! Kidding aside, i am happy you have chosen to forgive and accept whatever it is that had caused you pin. There’s more to life than what has happened in the past. Its something you cannot change with moving forward there’s hope and you can always begin. You can plan and change what you dont like and keep memories that you like to preserve for a lifetime. I think everyone gets hurt just like me ive experienced it too long time ago but ive chosen to forgive and move on because i love myself so much and i know i deserve the best! 🙂 cheers to the new year!

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  7. Oh wow. What an amazing post. I was really touched by how much you’ve grown through your pain, and how you’ve turned this potentially disastrous ending into a wonderful beginning. Not everyone fights pain the way you do, and you should be proud of yourself for this achievement. Kudos to you, and may 2017 pave the way to an even stronger and more adventurous you! 🙂

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  8. This is such a lovely letter and I’m sure it must have felt like a weight off your shoulders to write it too. It sounds like you have really made the most of your travel experiences, meeting new people and seeing new things. It’s always great to travel the world when one feels lost in the world, to open your eyes to new opportunities. I hope your 2017 may be even better 🙂

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  9. Wow, congrats sir! Moving on may be hard but it will teach us a lot of things and discover more of ourselves. Kadalasan naman din when a year ends we strive to be a better version of ourself come the next year and hoping na mamaintain natin yung change na naabot natin and not go back to the past.

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  10. I don’t know your story but I know that moving on is one of the hardest things to do in this life. In my case it takes me years. I sometimes wish I move on easily like some of my friends, but that’s not me and I’ve learned to accept myself as well as the process. It’s part of life and we sort of grow a muscle when we go through the pain.

    I admire you for choosing to let go and maintaining hope for your future. Not sure what 2017 brings, but I hope it does bring you happiness from whatever you choose to do with your life.

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  11. Awww, this post is so heart-warming. I love your optimism. Personally, I think even if you haven’t met that person, you’d still be a strong person. I think everyone has that person in us. We just need to have that thing that will trigger it to come out of us.

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  12. Thant’s just the way it is, Lai. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger – more productive. That brings you to who you are now. If you’re still together, do you think you’d be happier? Sabi nga sa TV, kapag may umaalis, may mas magandang kapalit. 🙂 Think positive!

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  13. thankfully, there was not much heartbreak (apart from the usual anger from people I will not mention here… because privacy. hahaha) from friends and family for 2016. Although said anger in the parenthesis is one of the factors that I still try to write and travel and get out there, as a way of smiting them, but I’m glad that you finally have forgiven yourself. That makes you more courageous than me to be honest. Congratulatiions!

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  14. My 2016 has full of ups and downs as well. The only difference is that it wasn’t my ex who left but someone close to my heart, my mom. She passed away last year and a few days later, her sister followed. It was indeed painful to bid goodbye to the ones we love but life should still go on. They may have left but sure that they have left something for us to look forward and that is not to cling on what’s done. I am so proud of you of making yourself worthy again despite the pain. Keep going!

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  15. Forgiveness can be such a challenge….but, you are an example of a wise soul who was able to turn pain into purpose and growth….this post is beyond beautiful and brave and inspiring and touching and poetic and deep and incredible…thanks for sharing 🙂

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  16. I used to take relationships very seriously and then my coin flipped for some years. After a few rounds of breakups, I stopped caring pretty quickly. People come and go, some are meant to stay, some are meant to be for a short while etc. Forgiveness is a strong word. I don’t feel the need to forgive an ex for leaving. There is nothing to forgive? I don’t know if I understood your piece correctly. Detachment is more the only emotion that I seek in a post breakup? It’s the only closure that I need.

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  17. Similar to my experience. Only sadder, more heartbreaking and life-changing. We have many reasons why we travel, we only have to learn to propel ourselves towards the good and betterment of our selves. Looking forward to meeting you Lai!

    🙂

    — Mermaid Paula

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